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Poetry

deer and ducks

she told me a story
of wandering the earth
set forth against forces
larger than her
she walked neighborhoods
night and day
and told me she
encountered
hissing deer
and
ducks raping
ducks
i didn’t know
what to say
and soon
after that
we parted
on the drive home
i fell asleep
and when i awoke
i was in my driveway
there were no ducks around
and
i was
thankful for
that.

Tohm Bakelas

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Poetry

Oh, Richey

You left us when this whole shitshow
was stumbling to another century, where
did you go, Richey, where did you

You slept in your car did you it’s the
whole fuckin fame game that’s all, 
the burning rose, the smiling butcher

Watching the black sky above
a lead weight pressing down, pulsating
with impeccable loneliness

Oh, Richey, back in Blackwood
haunting the old home, the bare bones
of the empty streets, alone

Why is home so lonely why is home
so abandoned why are we always leaving
and where do we go now, Richey, where

Bogdan Tiganov

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Poetry

Starry Night

shit, Vincent, i don’t think
you could have ever imagined
your Starry Night
would end up tattooed
to the lower back of this woman
who on all fours waits on the bed
looking over her shoulder
telling me with her eyes
to hurry up and fuck her

Jose Pepe Arroyo

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Art

Freedom

by Motan Rosu
Categories
Poetry

Botita

Don’t you dare stare into her face
as her shadowy form marches down the street,
hair tied back, dark eyes, no smile for those lips.

Her bones stand still outside the grey office
as she inhales from her cigarette enough life
to show up.

Is that a warhead hurtling down?

She strolls to the toilets and hammers down a fifth of vodka,
her features deadpan like deflowered oysters.
Another day begins.

Bogdan Tiganov

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Poetry

Birdman Blues

When you’re poor

You have to shit

In an un-air-conditioned

Bathroom as rivers

Of sweat rush down

Your face I was listening 

To a podcast

About daring prison breaks

Dillinger El Chapo et al

And I thought, emotionally

I’m no different 

Though it shouldn’t 

Have to be this way 

When love dies

And you find yourself

Doing hard time

One should be able to

Walk right out the front door 

And not have to sit there 

Plotting your own great escape 

In an un-air-conditioned 

Shitter as rivers of sweat 

Rush down your face

Jose Pepe Arroyo

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Poetry

EL BOLERO

it was all in the way you 

carried yourself before 

i set out i shined

my own shoes 

so the populace 

could see my work

my battered wingtips

with the laces busted

they walked much

but got nowhere

and still i stumble

through callejones 

and cantinas

of my memory

searching for me

with an old shoe shining box 

strapped to my shoulder

asking drunk men 

“shine your shoes?

shine your shoes?” 

but the drunks have 

no money to shine

their shoes and they 

send me to buy them 

some smokes instead

and i run and get the smokes

and steal one for my ear

and by the end of the day 

i manage to hustle 

a few pesos

and i walk home 

smoking that cigarette

counting them

Jose Pepe Arroyo

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Short stories

Soft Technologies

When I first arrived in New York City, I lived for a while in an apartment at 222 East 12th Street. The landlord lived in the basement and had a serpentarium containing a large snake, which he fed white mice and cockroaches. Most days, I would walk over to Tompkins Square Park. It was a year after the riots there but the area was still full of homeless people, drug dealers and crack and heroin addicts living in a Tent City. It was late August, 1989 and I was strolling around the neighbourhood and going to the bars, when newspaper reports and street gossip were telling the story of 29-year-old Daniel Paul Rakowitz, the son of an army criminal investigator, who had lived in the city for four years.

Sexual activity, whether perverted or not; the behaviour of one sex before the other; defecation; urination; death and the cult of cadavers (above all, insofar as it involves the stinking decomposition of bodies); the different taboos; ritual cannibalism; the sacrifice of animal-gods; haemophagia; the laughter of exclusion; sobbing (which, in general has death as its object); religious ecstasy; the identical attitude toward shit, gods, and cadavers

Rakowitz was an eccentric even for the out-there East Village; a priest of his own religion – the Church of 966 – whose familiar was a shoulder-riding rooster cockadoodling along with the punk and the dub. Rakowitz would walk around the park shouting things like, ‘Kill the pigs and feed them to the hogs.’ He made his money by selling marijuana – used as a sacrament in his religion – and believed the people in the park were his disciples. He styled himself the ‘God of Marijuana’. He was also a part-time cook and had worked in various local cafés and restaurants.

It may of course be deplorable that certain tribes take pleasure in eating their oversupply of old people, but never will I agree that such picturesque gourmets should be exterminated; after all, we should remember that cannibalism is the very model of a self-sufficient society as well as a practice well suited to appeal one day to a packed planet. However, my aim is not to bemoan the fate of cannibals, harried though they are, living in terror, the great losers in today’s world. Let’s admit it: their case is not exactly impressive. Anyway, they are on the decline; a hard-pressed minority stripped of self-confidence, unable to plead their own cause.

Monika Beerle lived at 700 East 9th Street. The 26-year-old from Switzerland was a dance student at the Martha Graham Center of Contemporary Dance and a performer at Billy’s Topless, a strip club at 727 6th Avenue and 24th Street. She and Rakowitz had only been dating a short time and the ‘God of Marijuana’ had moved in to her rooms. On August 19, the couple had an argument in their cramped apartment because Monika Beele had had enough and wanted him to move out, rooster and all

Bodies intermingle with one another, everything is mixed up in a kind of cannibalism that joins together food and excrement. Even words are eaten. This is the domain of the action and passion of bodies: things and words are scattered in every direction, or on the contrary are welded together into non-decomposable blocks. Everything in depth is horrible, everything is nonsense.

Rakowitz sadistically beat her and killed her by ramming a metal rod into her throat. He then stripped her, decapitated her and boiled her head, making soup from her brains. He’d loved the taste and scrawled on their apartment door, ‘Is it soup yet? Welcome to Charlie Gein’s Ranch East… Home of the Fine Young Cannibals.’ He had taken some of the ‘soup’ to Tompkins Square Park and passed it out to the homeless people living there. He boasted about what he had done, but most people thought he was a pathological liar, so dismissed his ranting as just that.

This country is without hope. Even its garbage is clean, its trade lubricated, its traffic pacified. The latent, the lacteal, the lethal – life is so liquid, the signs and messages are so liquid, the bodies and the cars so fluid, the hair so blond, and the soft technologies so luxuriant, that a European dreams of death and murder, of suicide motels, of orgies and cannibalism to counteract the perfection of the ocean, of the light, of that insane ease of life, to counteract the hyperreality of everything here.

He then returned to the apartment – John Joseph of the punk band the Cro-Mags lived a floor below – and put Beerle’s skull and bones in a drywall-compound bucket filled with cat litter that he deposited in a locker at the Port Authority bus station. A few days later, after a tip-off, police, arrested him. On February 22, 1991, he was tried and found not guilty of murder by reason of insanity and moved to a state hospital for the criminally insane where he remains. In an interview he stated, ‘I’m the new Lord, and I will take leadership of the satanic cultists to make sure they do everything that has to be done to destroy all those people who do disagree with my church. And I’m going to be the youngest person elected to the U.S. presidency.’

Steve Finbow

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Poetry

Night Tram

Asleep, or half so
with my feet
At rest on the opposing seat
My pissed up face
pressed up against
Against the window

A woman in a uniform
nudged me
Gently and said
“Could you move your feet”
I said
I could but no ones sitting there.

There are no other people here
Besides you, me and hopefully
A driver.
And she shocked me when she sighed
Took off her hat and sat beside me.

And set her feet beside mine on
Her opposing chair.
She said “Know what two stops more and
I am going home.”

Turned out her name is Emma
She has three mouths to feed
And she’s falling back on credit cards
A city falling out
Into my eyes
Lights so bright and skirts so short
They may as well be naked arses.

Sitting next to me like she
Had given up the ghost
With the flicker yellowed stamps of
Streetlamps streaming past.

“This tram will stop
so where will you get off?”
I tend to fall through doors
And wander homewards.
Sometimes I even get there.

She put her hat upon my head
For momenmts there
I was the conductor
That made me smile
I said “Emma could you move your feet”
She said yes
Just one more stop.

How awesome can those random strangers be?

Stuart Knowles

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Short stories

Report

Lying in bed last night, cocooned in that sweet hypnagogic haze, drifting, dissolving into sleepy dust, I was suddenly disturbed by my loving, placid neighbors. With closed eyes, with my head osmosing with the pillow, my body osmosing with the blanket and bed, I listened to their incongruous fight. This is what I remember:

Mr. & Mrs. Smith. Court One. Warm up. After twenty-two years it is exorable that my love for you has faded. I never loved you in the first place. I married you for the money. I married you because I was forced into it. Practice serves.  I have been using your razor on my legs for years. I always pour the last dregs of your almond/coconut fancy milk down the drain. I hide that one sock, the one that goes missing after a wash, and if you look in the cupboard in the spare room you will find them, all of them, years and years. I do the same with your car keys, you are not crazy. Even though I accuse you and berate you and call you all the names under the sun for having left toast crumbs in the butter yes it was me. You are Snow White in the bedroom. You are Rumpelstiltskin in the bedroom. Vagina dentata! Memento mori! Stretch. Drink liquid. Eat a banana. Meet at the net. Shake hands. Serve. It was I that broke your mother’s heirloom not the dog. Net. Second Serve. I leave the toilet seat up with the hope that during the night you will fall into the toilet. Fifteen Love. Serve. The last two times we had sex I faked the orgasm waited until you passed out and then used your fingers for a dildo. Fifteen Fifteen. Serve. Bitch! Line Call. Second Serve. Serve. I got so high on drugs at your father’s cremation I thought it is was disco. Out. Line call. Fifteen Thirty. Serve. Those inexplicable holes in your expensive clothing is not the consequence of hungry moths it is my artwork with scissors. Thirty Thirty. Serve. I might have used your toothbrush before bed before work on the soles of my feet for years. Thirty Forty. Break Point. Serve. What. Out. Second Serve. Serve.  Remember Malta. Remember Gozo. You remember those hot sultry nights.  Remember the meal at that sea food place in Valletta. Remember we had to take you back to the apartment. You said you were not feeling right; you blamed the oysters. Well, while you slept, your brother and I walked along the beach. It was on that beach, to the sound of waves crashing, under the moon, under the stars, we made love. And Gozo. Remember Gozo.  Remember Calypso’s cave. We left you sunbathing on Ramla Bay. We said we wanted to visit Odyssey’s Prison. So, we climbed up the hill to the cave. We waved. You returned the wave. In Calypso’s Cave, I sucked him off. Then he sucked me off. And then all together we swam in the sea, under the hot sun. It was extremely romantic! Deuce. Serve. Romantic my ass! It was never a secret. Daniel confessed. He said he hated you and that you were too much, always nagging him, always pestering him like an old pervert. He said that you were all over him like an old grandmother. He gave in just to make you stop. He said you got him drunk on cheap nasty wine. cheap nasty wine! Said you had no taste. He even told me about the drugs. Ad Out. Serve.  I killed the dog. The tennis ball was not a mistake. I stuffed the tennis down its throat. I did it. I confess. I couldn’t take the constant yapping. Deuce. Serve. I have been having an affair with Tim, your boss. We meet Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. At that motel on 5th Street. Yes, he has a bigger penis than you.  He makes me come repeatedly. I even allow him to anal fuck me, which I now enjoy. We are talking about going to swingers’ clubs and parties. And he says by the way you are fired! Ad Out. Serve. I thought about hiring a gun man to take you out. Net. Second Serve. Serve. I have been for the last three months poisoning you with small amounts of rat poison. Game. Set. Match. Mrs. Smith wins.

Paul Kavanagh